Black holes


Eh yo, I’m slippin I’m fallin… I can’t get up
Eh yo, I’m slippin I’m fallin… I can’t get up
Eh yo, I’m slippin I’m fallin… I gots to get up

This plays in my head just about every day. Being stuck in a mental/emotional rut will have you feeling like the “After” picture of Ciara’s career and it’s one of the most frustrating things to venture through. I’m on the edge of the volcano and the slightest gust of wind will have me tumbling over. Without getting into the personal details of my life, I’m a fragment of myself. A tiny speck in this universe concerned with getting erased. No, my love life is still flourishing. Amen. It’s everything else that feels out of sync. I haven’t written here in probably 2 years, yes I know. The only person that will probably see this is the spam that needs to do their daily web hits and yet that’s perfectly okay with me. I just needed to write my feelings down. Writing in a diary is like so 1997 anyway…

Look at ME!

Technology is one helluva drug.

It’s 2011 now and we live in an age where we can take our lives and broadcast it across the worldwide web, however where do we draw the line?

To me everyone wants to be “somebody” nowadays, their personas scream “Look at me, love me”. To some extent we all want to be acknowledged for something however where does it end? When is enough actually enough?

Nowadays it seems as though a lot of people are starved for attention, which leads me to believe they weren’t hugged enough as children. Maybe? There are so many forms of social networking ie. Facebook, Twitter, Myspace (yes Myspace is still around) ,etc. It gives us the opportunity to post our pics, comment and basically show off what we’re doing with our lives. That’s all fine and freakin dandy to me, however some people go overboard. Listen, I do not need a  step by step of your day-to-day life via Facebook or Twitter.

“Just had dinner with Mike and Tasha”

Next update:

” Now myself, Tasha and Mike are going to bowling”

Next update:

“Hey Mike and Tasha remember that inside joke that no one else cares about that I’m now going to retweet all over your timeline for the next 4 hours? Oh yea that was sooooooo hilarious remember?”    

*blank stare*

Please kindly have a seat somewhere and rest all your attention seeking ways down, they’re making you sleepy.

Why must we always try to prove to people how cool we are and how amazing our lives are? It’s more like trying to prove to yourself that you’re not a loser. By no means am I saying don’t update stuff, and don’t crack jokes with your friends however after awhile I’d appreciate if you shut up. No one likes the kid that RT’s everything, secretly most people think you’re annoying. Sorry to be the bearer of bad news. 

The internet has made me more aware of how many people there are begging to be liked by people that they barely even know. Why? I’m not understanding. Back in the day it was just people trying hard to impress their friends, now you have to impress people who you don’t know too? Damn, that’s too much work for me. Thankfully I’ve always had a strong sense of who I am and not who other people thought I should be.

New Music: Handsome by Pete Genesis

Well it’s about time! For quite some time I’ve been hearing word of Mr Pete Genesis aka Craig Irish being in the studio putting in work and finally we have the fruits of his labor. Pete Genesis is a rapper/producer from Toronto who’s trying to make a name for himself.

This is a little preview, a freestyle over Kanye’s “Gorgeous” beat.

Download it right ———————–>   Here    <————————–

What the?

Long time.

Not in the mood for formalities or pleasantries so I’ll just talk about some things off the top.

1. Why do people on Facebook “Like” their own status once they’ve written it? If I wrote “I’m going to have a sick time tonight”, isn’t it already implied that I like it since it came from my head and I took the time to post the damn status? Super lame. 

2. Why is it when you’re talking about something (general comment, rant, etc) people automatically assume it has to do with them? I come across a lot of people in my life and read a lot of different things. Therefore just because I go off on a rant about hmm… ex-girlfriends does not mean I’m talking about my boyfriends ex-girlfriend(s). For one, he’s had more than one so unless you’ve been doing some sneaky shit, do not for one think I’m talking about you. Second, I’m not checking for any of them cause it’s all about ME now. Unless you disrespect me (or him) I have no issues with you. You were the past, I’m the present and also the future. Let’s get all the way familiar.

*Chris Brown voice* DEUCES

SOTD: Upgrade Ya

Tying into my previous post, there is no way this couldn’t have been song of the day.

This was the FIRST song I fell in love with off of this album B’Day. I remember around the time the video dropped, everyone had their bullshit rumors swirling around that they broke up. When she dropped this video, at the point where Jay-Z starts to rap everyone was like “see see, he’s not even in it…” then they were shamed one scene after. The strength of a relationship is never truly known by the outside world looking in it. Unless you see things firsthand everyday, everything else is just speculation.

Who’s Mad?

Upgrade Ya- Beyoncé feat. Jay-Z

Hiiiii baby 🙂


Throughout the time that I’ve had this blog, I’ve talked about many aspects of Love. The highs and lows and ins and outs of it. Looking back (and reading back) I’ve had my share of L’s with Love. When you’re going through it, it seems like it’s the worst thing that could have happened, after awhile you realize it was just to make way for something better. People always asked me why I held out so long and stayed single, I always answered with “getting a boyfriend isn’t hard” and I still stick by my answer. Getting a GOOD one is hard and getting a hard one is quite good (jokes… well not really).

*prays my family isn’t reading this…*

I digress.

I always told myself I was doing it for a reason, I just knew it. Throughout the way, I know people thought the real reasons why I was single were:

 a) I had some kind of issue and Men couldn’t put up with me

 b) I’m picky 

 c) I’m a total Looney Toon.

That’s fine though, people will always have their own opinion but I knew my worth. Losers in life have a special way of making you feel like you’re the problem when really they are. The fact that I now know for sure I wasn’t waiting in vain all this time has me smirking heavily. God has a funny way of placing people in your life at the correct moments. Needless to say my moment came and I was ready, word to Alicia Keys.

It’s a blessing to be matched with your equal, my efforts and everything I do is reciprocated. THAT is a word that has been missing. ReciprocityIt’s one thing to do nice things for someone and have certain feelings for them, but once it’s given back to you? There’s no better feeling.

My friends and family are happy for me, and that makes me feel good. The pouring in of love from some of you has been overwhelming. Thank You. 

To the fake “friends”/acquaintances/Stalkers from a distance  that wish that this doesn’t last, cause you’re as bitter those other members of Destinys Child. You push us to stay stronger. Like how I did that huh? Put “us” to remind you that not only are you bitter, but you’re probably lonely too? *winks*

 To the males that have hit me up with their “Sorry for 2010” a la Ruben Studdard, you’re late as usual.  The fact that you thought I would be around forever is comical at best. Scratch my name off of your never-ending roster, cause I’m a starting player already.

Right now my heart is full and it’s interesting that I never had a “checklist” before but now I’ve realized that he has every.last.check on it.

Funny how that works huh?



It’s very seldom that you’re blessed to find your equal, still play my part and let you take the lead role, believe me–   BEY!

Random Trivia (1)

I love Trivia. People think it’s dumb, but if you’re ever on Jeopardy you’ll think a lot different.

I received this in an email and thought I would share.


1. Money isn’t made out of paper, it’s made out of cotton.

2. The Declaration of Independence was written on hemp (marijuana) paper.

3. The dot over the letter ‘i’ is called a ‘tittle.’

4. A raisin dropped in a glass of fresh champagne will bounce up and down continuously from the bottom of the glass to the top.

5. Susan Lucci is the daughter of Phyllis Diller

6. 40% of McDonald’s profits come from the sales of Happy Meals.

7. 315 entries in Webster ‘s 1996 Dictionary were misspelled.

8. The ‘spot’ on 7UP comes from its inventor, who had red eyes. He was albino.

9. On average, 12 newborns will be given to the wrong parents, daily :S

10. Warren Beatty and Shirley MacLaine are brother and sister.

11. Chocolate affects a dog’s heart and nervous system; a few ounces will kill a small-sized dog.

12. Orcas (killer whales) kill sharks by torpedoeing up into the shark’s stomach from underneath, causing the shark to explode.

13. Most lipstick contains fish scales

14. Donald Duck comics were banned from Finland because he doesn’t wear pants.

15. Ketchup was sold in the 1830’s as medicine.

16. Upper and lower-case letters are named ‘upper’ and ‘lower’ because in the time when all original print had to be set in individual letters,

the Upper case’ letters were stored in the case on top of the case that stored the smaller, ‘lower case’ letters.

17. Leonardo Da Vinci could write with one hand and draw with the other at the same time, hence multi-tasking was invented.

18. Because metal was scarce, the Oscars given out during World War II were made of wood.

19. There are no clocks in Las Vegas gambling casinos.

20. The name Wendy was made up for the book Peter Pan; there was never a recorded Wendy before!

21. There are no words in the dictionary that rhyme with: orange and purple.

22. Leonardo Da Vinci invented scissors. Also, it took him 10 years to paint Mona Lisa ‘s lips.

23. A tiny amount of liquor on a scorpion will make it instantly go mad and sting itself to death

24. The mask used by Michael Myers in the original ‘Halloween’ was a Captain Kirk’s mask painted white..

25. If you have three quarters, four dimes, and four pennies, you have $1.19. You also have the largest amount of money in coins without being able to make change for a dollar

26. By raising your legs slowly and lying on your back, you can’t sink in quicksand (and you thought this list was completely useless.)

27. The phrase ‘rule of thumb’ is derived from an old English law, which stated that you couldn’t beat your wife with anything wider than your


28. The first product Motorola started to develop was a record player for automobiles At that time, the most known player on the market was the Victrola, so they called themselves Motorola.

29. Celery has negative calories! It takes more calories to eat a piece of celery than the celery has in it to begin with. It’s the same with apples.

30. Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying!

31. The glue on Israeli postage stamps is certified kosher.

32. Guinness Book of Records holds the record for being the book most often stolen from Public Libraries.

33. Astronauts are not allowed to eat beans before they go into space because passing wind in a space suit damages it.

34. George Carlin said it best about Martha Stewart, “Boy, I feel a lot safer now that she’s behind bars. O. J. Simpson and Kobe Bryant are still walking around; Osama Bin Laden too, but they take the ONE woman in America willing to cook, clean, and work in the yard, and they haul her off to jail.”


Whip it real good.

Just watched this video and snapped.

A couple people came to mind while watching: Charlene, Sajae, Chantea.

This little girl just slayed the game with this performance. It looks some of the choreo for “Whip My Hair” with original pieces added.

 Get your life.

Fresh Princess

I’m a little late on this, but oh well… I do what I want.

By now, you must have seen Willow Smiths (Will Smith + Jada Pinkett Smith’s child) video for her banger “Whip My Hair”.  Doesn’t it just make you want to dance? She’s only 9 and already has so much personality.

Now that I’ve gotten that out of the way. Is it Willows mission in her young life to continue to come for Rihannas Elmo Red wig? Clearly. The newest blastoff is beginning her performance as shown in this video with Rih-funds “Only Girl in the World”. Message?

Loves this kid.

Willow Smith- Whip My Hair

Broke and Living

Good Morning,

It’s still a Recession, for those of you that say it isn’t I don’t know what planet you’re living on.  If you’re currently not Broke and Living, do you want to adopt me? Just a simple question, no need to roll your eyes at me.. gosh.

Well you know my fam, whom I so often mention The Discombobulated Tricks? Well they’re back with some new flavor. Their new site is called You know the Kanye line “We all self-conscious, I’m just the first to admit it“? Well this is along those lines. Nowadays, everyone tries to act like all they do is get money and stunt in clubs with Grey Goose bottles while really their rent isn’t paid. Boy, disappear! Girls acting like they’re Rihanna in the club when they borrowed (or stole their whole outfit) and they walk out in the videolight when Fancy comes on. Girl, good-damn-day!

My girls aren’t frontin.