All the way turned up

*Jay-Z voice* What you wanna me to do? I’m sorrryyyy, but I’m back!

For those of you that have been rocking with me for awhile now, you should know how I get down. There’s only so long I can hold my tongue on certain things. This has been bugging me for awhile and I feel it needs to come off of my chest.

 

What does Friendship mean to you?

 

I hope you stopped and listed to yourself all the things it means. Me? 1 big thing I need from someone I consider a friend is honesty. Our generation consists of a bunch of spineless people that think telling someone how you feel means being rude. That’s so far from the truth, it’s not even funny. Granted if you go up to your friend and say “You dress horribly and you’re pretty ugly, I suggest makeup” yea, that’s kind of rude. However if you maybe tell your friend that the mini skirts she wears doesn’t compliment her body as well as say an A-line skirt, then you’re doing your friendly duties.

Trust and honesty is so vital to a relationship, without it nothing flourishes. Why is it that people don’t understand that concept as of yet? I mean, it’s so simple. If one of your “friends” does something that bothers you or has hurt you, why don’t you just bring it up to them? Pretending that everything is okay is fake and cowardly. What’s even more fake than pretending is going out of your way to ignore someone.  Welcome to Grade 5 folks, complete with the JTT crush (ladies y’all remember JTT lol). Don’t throw shade on some subliminal mess but you don’t have the guts to ever say it to someones face. That makes no kind of sense! Do you want attention? Do you want love? If so, go hug a tree or something because this isn’t the place. If you heard half a story from someone else about your “friend” and take it on as CNN fact when really the person is as credible as MediaTakeOut, your wack <– Just thought I’d let you know, since I’m sure 1 of your friends hasn’t told you yet.

*Double kisses*

On to the next one

Good Morning!

Let’s hop right on to it.

I’m noticing a trend that a lot of people tend to be on a ride lately. By that I mean it’s like people are on their own stupid/ silly agenda and I can’t grasp it. So I have a couple of questions:

  • Who’s the driver of this ride?
  • Why did they hand out so many transfers so folks can hop on and off of this ride?
  • Why has the ride been extended to males and females of all ages and heights?
  • When will this ride come to an end?

 

Can anyone answer this?

Why does everyone think that everything works on their time? Their agenda? Their game plan? You say something therefore it should be done? Last time I checked your no ones Queen of England so please have a seat. At any given moment you require something and request it gets done, I oblige, however I’ve been waiting for you to fill out my request for sometime and it cannot get filled? Okay. Alright. Then you ask for another request and expect it done ASAP, however you guessed it- I’m still waiting on my 1st request to even be halfway finished. On what planet does that jive?

The clock doesn’t work on your time, and your time only! Hello?

Then there are the ones that aren’t sure if they want you so they pop in for a couple of days then disappear for awhile and then pop in and so on and so forth. I mean, what? Can we keep some form of consistency? If you’re unsure whether or not I’m the correct female for you, keep things at a basic level- that’s fine. However, do not be hot for a couple days and then below zero for the next couple of days. That’s not very hard to ask, if not then please be on to the next one (on to the next one). This is 2009 on its way to 2010, common sense can be Googled, let’s face it  everything is on Google. Selfishness is not becoming and I wish people would realize this sooner. It’s unfair for you to expect people to put up with your sometime-ish (West Indians know this word lol).

Case and point there is an individual that put me on extreme ignore for a couple days. So I deal with the fact that you’re ignoring me because at the end of the day I can’t force anyone to talk to me. Then once you realize I’m not running you down, you go around telling people (like my AUNT) that I’m a b*tch? I’m literally “laughing out loud” as I write this. Get over yourself buddy. I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!  Don’t dish out what you can’t take. Keep it 100 with me and yourself. If you can’t pull off the “I don’t give a damn” persona then don’t even attempt it. You will not like the end result.

Good day

Cheater, Cheater

Good Evening,

All day at work the main discussion has not been work but rather “The Tiger Debate”. It’s everywhere you look: TV, Radio, Newspapers, internet! My take on the whole thing is, what he did isn’t right but it’s not our business. Before the story broke (in the initial stages of just the crash) it seemed as though the public was on some sort of public witchhunt. At the end of the day, it’s THEIR business and if they wanted to discuss the reasons as to why he rushed out of the house then they could do so. What pissed me off about the whole thing is that on cp24 yesterday it said “Breaking News: Tiger Woods blah blah blah (can’t remember the exact line at that point)” then after the Breaking News was the story of the car that crashed through the Homesense store. Huh? Which one is more considered to be “Breaking News” here? A celebrity that potentially got caught with their pants down? Or someone crashing into a store and dying?

… I’ll give you guys a minute to think about it…..

Bottom line priorities are messed up nowadays, which is unfortunate. What became truly unfortunate is a lot of the things I saw plastered across Twitter today. If you’re not familiar Twitter stays on top of popular stories across the world. There is a side panel that keeps a short list of what’s the most talked about subject on Twitter for the moment. Today because of Tigers Tales, a lot of the Trending Topics were based upon Cheating and Tiger,etc.  The 2 that brought the most concern to me was #whymencheat and #sidechickawareness. The topic on sidechicks really just produced a lot of jokes which was fine, but the topic on why men Cheat just threw me off completely. Some of the answers that were tweeted were:

  • “She gave me something that I needed, that you weren’t giving”
  • “She put out more”
  • “I liked her personality better”
  • “My ex does it better than you”
  • “I kept going back because the sex was good”
  • “Imagine having steak and lobster every night, even you would get bored of that”

I’m just going to stop right there…

*Counts to 1,352 in her head*

Are you SERIOUS?! I mean seriously? All those reasons only get 1 clear cut response from me…

Why don’t you just leave the relationship then?”

It’s really that simple. Mistakes do happen, granted, however we’re talking about people that consistently step out on their relationships/marriage. What is the friggin point? If you have kids, yes that can get sticky however what is the point in staying in a relationship and messing up your children for the future. Children know a lot more than us adults seem to realize. They sense things and they keep them in their memory, then you  see them on future episodes of “Intervention”.

As a person that’s been on the receiving end of the cheating, trust me when I say JUST LEAVE! What is the point in knowing in your head that you’re with someone and they’re only fulfilling 3/8 of your checklist in a mate and the 5 things that they are missing are enough to make you feel as though you “need” to cheat, please don’t let the door hit you on the way out! If your partner is not giving you what you want sexually, there are books/magazines/internet sites that you guys can read together. Or what, better yet, just TELL THEM how you like it! If your mate is not giving you what you want emotionally, TALK TO THEM ABOUT IT! If that doesn’t work on more than one occasion then I suggest you leave the relationship amicably. Why live in a lie? I mean on what galaxy is that ‘ish okay? How can you be so selfish. What’s funny is, people that consistently cheat have all these explanations as to why they do it, but have their mate do it to them and watch all hell break loose. Then they are scarred for life and every women is triflin from there on out. Spare me the garbage, cause I’m not the 1, the 2 nor the 3.

Blackberry Etiquette

Good Morning,

How is everyone doing this morning? Yesterday was a write off, today should be better- at least I’m willing it to be. I’m going to try to get back to writing on the regular, keyword : try. Just a little plug, this Saturday is the Torontofresh “Fresh Not Frozen party at Premium Rhythm Bar. I want you all to come out, I’m trying to take pictures and chill out with some good people. There will be giveaways and all that good stuff.

This next post I’ve been meaning to write and for some reason have just been putting it off. I’ve written different posts on technology and us being obsessed with it but now I feel enough is freaking enough. I’m apart of the Blackberry clique and I love my berry, I really do. However I find that most of us Berry owners are freaking obsessed with it and in some cases almost downright rude. There needs to be some kind of etiquette that folks should follow when it comes to using your Berry in public.

When you are around others whether it be a date, just chilling out, dinner, etc. please do not hold your phone in your hand and constantly check it every 2 seconds. It’s so rude, extremely rude. When that happens I find it utterly disrespectful, because it’s like you don’t value our time enough to put your phone on pause for a little bit. In no way am I saying, don’t check your phone at all but damn have a little respect. When I’m in the presence of others, especially in a one on one setting I do my best not to check my phone every God forsaken second. For what?! It irks me the most when I’m at a dinner and everyone around is on their berry doing things that owners do (bbm’ing, twittering, facebooking) there is a time and place for everything. We have to learn to seperate the two. If it’s really THAT serious the person will save that bbm message and maybe just call you. Crazy concept, eh? I will continue to say it, technology has ruined the art of communication. We as the younger generation, have no idea how to articulate and express our emotions properly. In front of our peers we are generally quiet and afraid to say what’s on our mind or say what’s real. We wait until we get to our phone/cpus to express our thoughts because it gives us that sense of wall or security. I say no way Jose. It’s getting to a point where I’m extremely irritated by it all. These blackberrys will be the death of us as we know it. It’s killing us slowly and I’m not having it.

Another thing, have you noticed that with certain people when you message them they take ‘forever’ to respond, but when you’re in their presence they answer every message they receive with the quickness? Interesting, I’d say. Clearly it’s just me that you ignore for the most part then right? I can catch the play. Blackberry culture can be so tricky.

Homewreckers Hide in Shame

Good morning y’all,

 

I rarely post Celebrity gossip from other sites but this I felt I directly related to this one. If you didn’t know Alicia Keys is a Homewrecker (let’s just call a Spade a Spade here) as she helped in the break up of Swizz Beatz and Mashonda. Read it first:

The following letter from Mashonda was issued in response to Keys’ tweet on Friday night: “Having a heated debate n the studio. Question is…N love is it better to go 4 the choice that is ‘SMART’ or the choice that has ‘SPARK’??”

After having a great evening with my son and enjoying some fun twit chat, I decided to sign off and get some work done. However, a few hours later I was advised that I should check @aliciakeys twit page. I’ve never reached out to her on twitter before. I feel our issues are a lot more serious than a website conversation. Not to mention that I’ve reached out to her many times in the beginning of this whole thing, as any wife would do. Unfortunately, I never succeeded in getting a response. The 1st time I meet AK, my husband introduced us to each other at an event. ( I have no choice but to call him my husband, until he is not anymore) In the messages that I sent to her (AK), I made it very clear that on the contrary of what she might be hearing, I am still married to my husband, living with him and just had a child. Its been two years and I still have not received a response. What I do receive, is constant displays of selfishness and disconcern to me and my son.

I was a fan of AK’s last album, we were both signed to J Records and I always checked up on her projects. I sang her songs and admired her for creating Superwoman and Karma, I would never deny her, her talent. I believed in her until I found out she was possibly sleeping with my husband. The affair was denied by both, until it was finally admitted months later.

Already I can hear some of you saying ” why are u blaming her, You cant make someone leave their wife, You cant break something thats broken”. Well, my marriage was not broken, as far as I knew we were celebrating our sons birth and getting ready to celebrate our 5 year wedding anniversary . Call it blind love, whatever. I call it being a devoted wife.. As far as me blaming her and not blaming him, thats false. Me and my husband have worked out our differences. We are in a good place as people and as parents. I accept his choices and I am comfortable enough with myself to move on. I am so very blessed in many ways.

My concern with AK is no longer the fact that she assisted in destroying a family but that she has the audacity to make these selfish comments about love and wanting to be with someone, even after knowing their situation. How is this the same Superwoman that I sang out loud with in my truck? I ask myself sometimes.

If you are reading this Alicia, let me start by saying, you know what you did. You know the role you played and you know how you contributed to the ending of my marriage. You know that I asked you to step back and let me handle my family issues. Issues that you helped to create.

Im not saying everything was perfect all the time but no relationship is perfect. We made a vow to God and I believe you should have respected that, as a woman. I know you owe me or my son nothing but I just wish you would’ve handled things more carefully. I’m not judging you, I put you and the whole situation in the hands of God, the Higher Power. Just know that as a woman, I expected so much more from you. I never had intentions on reaching out to you this way but after reading your twits tonight, and the constant disregard, you left me no choice. I feel that after 1 and a half years of you hiding this affair and acting like it doesnt exist, that now is the time to confront it, since you talk so openly about it now

This is not a publicity stunt, I dont have a record coming out. I just need to close this chapter in my life and that means confronting our issues. There is a small child involved. His dad loves him to death and he wants to spend more time with him but hes afraid because he knows we don’t have a relationship. This is my main concern. My son NEEDS his dad and I NEED to be comfortable with you. For him!

I know many will see my point and many will not be able to look into what’s real because they only want to see Alicia Keys the celebrity, not the human. This is not for the “people”, this is for you. Like I said I was left no choice but to reach out to you this way. By now, Im sure you want to find a balance in this as well.

I read your tweets tonight and I felt they were very insensitive. You have no idea how much pain I was caused because of this affair. Its baffling to me that you don’t understand what I might have gone through with this situation. I dont consider myself a victim anymore, Ive learned alot from this! I just ask you to try and be a bit more realistic and delicate to the situation, at least until my divorce is final. I felt me attending the party would have been a starting point for us, since you shook my hand after I offered it, but I suppose I was wrong.

If it’s so, that you and my husband are meant to be together, then God bless you both and I hope you never have to deal with what I did. I would not wish it on my worst enemy. If you two being together forever is the case, its more of a reason for us to get along, because I’m not going anywhere. Theres a child to be raised.

To answer your tweet, choose smart over spark. Sparks burn everyone, be smart! Its simple actually, just think of the shoe being on the other foot.

Stay blessed and lets work this thing out with respect and dignity.

 

-As per Rapup.com

 

Now, here are my thoughts on that letter…

GO MASHONDA!

Seriously though, well done Mashonda. I can directly relate to this as I’ve been in a very similar situation. How dare you aid in the breakup of a relationship and then have the audacity to flaunt that relationship for the public to see, before the other one is even over! Shameeee on you! You need to be called out, and take account for your actions. That’s low down triflin behaviour and I’m glad Mashonda did this. She wasn’t disrespectful, nor did she call Alicia out her name she just wrote from a place in her heart. There is nothing more hurtful and humiliating than having to deal with your partner cheating on you and walking around town flaunting his new relationship with the girl he messed around with. Talk about disrespectful. For any of you that are going to say noone can “take” your man from you, do not go there. Sometimes it doesn’t take much for someone to help in tearing apart an otherwise “normal” relationship. They are not divorced and you are walking town on cloud 9 like you didn’t do anything at all. Mind the way your relationship starts you know, because if it begins in deceit and lies it surely will end in that fashion. BELIEVE IT! Karma doesn’t sleep.

Thank you Mashonda for exposing what needed to be exposed. I rate it

Doctor Doctor

Good Evening,

 

Today, I didn’t go to work because I woke up with the left side of my face swollen and a certain portion of it hurting. I rarely call in sick for work, most things I thug it out and keep it moving however sometimes I have to throw in the towel (while being forced from others). The thing is when I get sick for whatever reason, everyone’s first phrase to me is “Make sure you go to the doctor” and my usual reply is “What for?”. Here’s the thing, I’m not too fond of doctors.Most experiences that I have with them are a waste of my time and effort. There are certain things that I’ve been struggling with for years and I’ve yet to meet a doctor that will take the time to actually help me out with it. My typical experience with a doctor never ends well- today was no different. It took so much out of me just to get out of bed and get to the doctor, halfway there I started to feel nauseous. My body was drained beyond means, I was walking around dragging my feet (Pet peeve of mine lol). Goodtimes, goodtimes. The minute I get to the doctor the expletives start going off in my head because I realize it’s going to be a long wait, and that it was. After falling asleep while waiting over 45 min, the doctor came in the room with her usual Sars mask on. Sidenote, maybe it’s just me but I think that’s extremely rude. She speaks through the mask, and yes she’s been doing it pre Swine Flu. After I try to tell her what my issues are, she rushes me through it and downplays it all. Maybe it’s just me here, but when your swollen it means your body is trying to tell you something. How could that just be nothing? She asked me if I wanted prescribed Advil, I said “is this special Advil? What kind is it?”. This trick replied “it’s normal Advil, the difference is instead of having to take 2 like the other one, this you just take one”. B*@C% , do you think I rode the remedial bus here?  If it’s “normal” Advil why would I take your prescription so I could spend more money than I would on regular ass Advil. I answered her “no” in the rudest fashion and she was practically out the door before saying bye. I left the office feeling extremely defeated. In all honesty, I believe I will be one of those people to pass away just “randomly” without warning because I’ve been wrongly diagnosed on many occasions. I’m so serious. My question to you folks is:

What are the qualifications to be a doctor nowadays?

Seriously, can someone answer me? It seems as though any Tom, Dick and Harry can become a doctor. Do they make them go through emphathy courses? I feel as though most doctors dont give a damn about any of their patients. They perform “Hit and Runs”, in and out like a thief in the night. That’s messed up to me. We go to doctors when we are concerned about our health, it sucks going to the person that’s supposed to help you and add some relief to your life and they treat you like crap. Not cool at all.

If anyone knows of any good doctors, please let me know. Maybe I’ll give it a try.

This goes out to Number 1

Good morning folks,

I was dying to write this last night, and I didnt have time at first then when I got home I was extremely tired. Now that I’ve had time to simmer a bit maybe the raw emotion had a chance to cool but I’m still just as infuriated as I was before.

This is a Blind Item, I’m sure who it’s regarding will definitely know it’s for them.

So there are a couple things that are high on my list of piss-offs and number 1 would have to be disrespect. I don’t like to disrespect people because that right there is Bad Karma. That will always come back to you in life and you should remember that. So why is it that people always feel the need to try and disrespect me thinking they can GET AWAY WITH IT?! I don’t appreciate that in the least and I’m no ones fool. Now that I’m sure your interest has been peaked, I know you’re wondering what has me in such a tizzy. Well, some unnamed male has been trying to gain brownie points with me for quite some time now. The typical I’m a good man and I’m not just trying to see your kitty all come out of his mouth, as if it’s supposed to be the magic words. Homie, I don’t believe you… you need more people! This is where it gets tricky. This “suitor” tries to give me a birthday present Jeremih style and I kindly refuse, bbm’ing me, calling me. So what does this simpleton go and do? He begins to message my friend that’s in the SAME CAR AS ME.

ON WHAT PLANET IS THAT OKAY?

You couldn’t even give me the decency of allowing me to get home? Really? No, seriously though? Did you not think I would  book that? Then I get home and you’re still trying to get at me. Are you that hard up *no pun intended*. You wonder why I never take your behind seriously. This is it! Listen up and hear me good, I’m not the one nor the two or even the three. Next time I see you, believe you me I’m calling you out. That is a promise and I don’t make those very often. You’ve successfully pissed me off jerkoff.

For the love of Moses

I am so mad right now it is ridiculous.  Those that know me, know my constant battle with my phone and Telus Mobility.

 

I rue the day I ever signed up with them! Another lapse in my judgement, a certain ex factor boosted to go there. Grrrr I should have realized my stupid mistake the same time he made an exit.  MOVING ALONG.

 

Telus seems to hate me maybe more than I hate them. Why do they think it’s appropriate for me to walk around town with this hurt phone that I have?! I think it’s cruel and unfortunate. They’ve been dangling false hopes and promises to me for the last couple months saying that they would be releasing a new Blackberry. It’s July 7th and again I’ve been duped! I’m overcharged and for what? To have a stupid phone that doesn’t even work properly? The injustice of it all. They are not the only ones that I place blame on, Blackberry/RIM is also to blame.  Is it right that not only is my phone freezing, the ball is not letting me scroll up and down, I don’t receive messages, I send out messages and it doesn’t show delivered, it deletes my call logs and msgs… did you want me to continue?

 

If i ever see that damn gecko or that ferret I’m gonna punch it in its nose  (not the monkey though, I love monkeys lol)

Lying is for Losers!

Wowwww,

You want to know what burns my bridges?

Take a wild guess…

LIARS!

 

Why must people lie about the simplest things? Why do people make a habit out of lying to those they “care” about all the blasted time. Ugggghhhhh, that is unappealing in ways I can’t even put into words for you. Lying and saying you went to Pizza Hut, when really you went to Pizza Nova. Lying about who you like from who you don’t like. Lying about things you did or did not say.

 

WHY?!

For what? What’s the basis?

 

So uncalled for. Not to mention, don’t you feel like it’s a personal attack on your intelligence? As if the person that’s lying is trying to test it, you know “let me see how smart this person actually is...” . F all of that. Your lies may work on some naive folk, but keep at the front of your mind that I may be datchick but I’m not THAT chick!

My Blackness

A couple months ago, I was having a conversation with one of my co-workers (he’s White) about why I was different and why he wanted to date me. I never took him seriously because he’s a very cocky individual and I got the impression that he was just pursuing me for sport. When I inquired how I was so “different” from other black females he began to say “You’re not like the rest of them”. Ummmm, okay what does that mean? So I finished his sentence for him, I said “Are you trying to say I’m not loud and ignorant?” , the look of guilt on his face told me I was dead on.  He elaborated by saying I’m like a “black white girl”. Thank you?!

 

This isn’t the first time that someone has told me something like that. One of my ‘ex-factors’ used to tell me that I’m like a white person because of my vocabulary and intelligence. Extremely asinine in my books. What does a vast vocabulary have to do with being seen as “Black or White”. IGNORANT. I speak like this because as a child, I’ve always loved reading.  I shouldn’t be ashamed in that. Get your vocab up! Furthermore what kind of message are we sending out that just because ‘I don’t be talking like I’m from the hood’, or like LaQuisha from around the way… does not make me any less BLACK.  I loving learning about new things and having intelligent conversations so that automatically equates that I’m white? IGNORANT.

 

I swear sometimes you black folk can be so damn foolish lol.

 

Neeks is gone to listen to some Aerosmith…