Life is crazy sometimes, real crazy. Sometimes I feel like drowning and all I need is a lifevest. Again, I’ve successfully managed to mess up my health so dealing with that makes life that much more stressful. Well, that’s when God decides to send you a paddle to help see your way out. Yesterday, I had an amazing opportunity fall into my presence (as well as the Discombobulated Tricks). At first I thought it was too good to be true, but then upon rethinking it I realized why does it have to be too good to be true? Sometimes we get down on ourselves to the point that we discourage our own selves before anyone else can. Why is that? Is it to try to ‘protect’ our spirit before anyone else can damage it with their discouraging words? Is it to keep ourselves from getting excited only to be disappointed in the end? Lack of confidence? Hmmm, the possibilities are endless but either way….
Either way, I’m not having it.
I’m good at different things, so why don’t I act like it? Maybe, it’s because I don’t think I’m entitled to it. It’s interesting to me when I see rappers, singers, industry folk that brag about them being so amazing, when they’re really not. Do they know they’re not that great but put on this confident front to the world? Some do, I know that for a fact. Others don’t really know the truth and everyone is too afraid to tell them. There’s such a fine line between good confidence in knowing you have a little bit of talent in something and knowing to endure through it and then knowing when to give it a rest.
Yesterday came to be from me just being me (didn’t mean to Dr.Seuss you lol). I have it, I know I do. Just have to use it a little more, because when I think about it I definitely know what to do with it *Drizzy voice*